It bothers me to breathe. It's like I'm inhaling something that is strong like acetone.
I cough, constantly now. I can't even sleep at night. It like bronchitis but 100x worse. I can't even go out to dinner with my sisters without them jumping down my throat about not taking better care of myself.
But what more can I do. I've taken time off and out for myself. I try and sleep more. I've been leaving the office earlier on a daily basis.
I don't know what else to do. Luckily my hair isn't falling out like it did the first time. I'm already rockin' the mini fro.
There really is nothing left to lose. I know this isn't funny but I have to try and keep my spirits up.
This is forcing me to step up my game in life. Game meaning, get my life more together. Why is it that when people are faced with life altering situations they get a sudden boost of confidence?
I should have stepped up and did this a while back but I didn't have the motivation to until I found out I just might be enduring this fight for a second time.
Ugh! My life really just started picking back up and I'm smiling everyday now, I can't go back there.
I don't want to. Whoo Lordy, it's praying time like my grandmother says.
First off, I want to thank you for allowing me to read this and since I've just recently discovered you, what are you trying to hide? Is your life in jeopardy?
ReplyDeleteNot trying to be nosy but I find myself concerned because, yeah, I've been through that life-altering situation so I know the impact it can have; I had a stroke close to six years ago and while it didn't kill me, I have reason to wish that it had: Almost six years of unending pain and pain no drug can make go away and no surgery can cure; I can't remember the last time I wasn't in pain and pain so bad I can't stand to feel the air on my skin, let alone clothes on my back.
Why the boost? It's because we realize that the alternative ain't looking like fun, which is why I hurried up and made sure my confidence after the stroke - and despite this insane pain - was cranked up like nobody's business... because the alternatives straight up suck.
I don't know you; I've just met you, but what I can I do to make sure your confidence remains nice and boosted? There very well may be nothing left to lose... but you gotta know and believe there's still stuff to be gained and that it must be done... while you can still do it - and you have to want to do it so let my words serve to motivate you even more because it ain't over till it's over - and I ain't heard no fat ladies singing yet, have you?