In 7 days I will be celebrating my first full year of celibacy. I can hardly believe it because there use to be a time when I couldn't go more than a couple days without giving in to the temptation of my flesh.
But mentally I am stronger now than I was then. But I still have my moments. I'm having one right now in fact but I'm trying to keep my mind busy.
This journey started as a joke between me and some friends, but as time went on I ended my 6 month bet by having what i thought might have been the best sex of my life lol.
However, going through that made me realize something, in those 6 months I learned quite a bit about myself and those around me.
So my simple bet became the first stepping stone in my path to becoming a better me. People asked how giving up sex helps me to be a better me but what they don't realize is that being celibate is about so much more than just not having sex, so much more.
It has helped me to see which people really wanted me for me, not for what I can do behind closed doors. It has caused me to develop a greater respect for myself and my body.
And, I'm sure that when I do finally decide to let my flesh taste the sweet and satisfying elixir that is sex it will be something like a great thing.
So, on this coming Saturday, not only will it be my Homecoming, it will be my anniversary.
But I gotta keep it real and admit, I wouldn't mind getting caught up in a mean lip lock with someone right about now. Just to satisfy this craving anyways.
I was celibate for 8 months once upon a time. For me, it started out as an emotional cleansing of baggage I had been carrying around from an ex. After that, I came to realize that I was too learning more about myself and more about the people I kept around me. It's amazing how many people are NOT amused by the fact that you wont be sleeping with them, lol.
ReplyDeleteHappy Anniversary (one day early)!
Thanks love!
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